Reboot #.....

another year gone
another quarter past
another chapter closed
another goodbye

talk to sonia.
if you don't know her, you should.
Shes pretty awesome and
seems to always get my mind ticking again.
she may seem small
but she awlays asks some seriously big questions

every year is the same for me,
a new group of friends,
a new core organization.
This doesn't mean i lose friends or drop out of orgs,
just i shift attention. hence reboot.

every year its a reboot
and graduating is no different
mebbe sonia is right
i don't care enough

mebbe i'm supposed
to stick by
hold the line
for better or for worse
although there is truth
in what she says

this is the whole truth:
i care
whole heartedly
i don't stay with anything
unless i really mean it
i don't keep friends i don't want
i don't join orgs i can't stand
but that's not the reason why i move around
not because i don't care for the people, or the vision

its because i don't know where i belong
i can work hard, move up, love sincerely
everywhere and where ever
i really want to find the place for me

mebbe she is right
there is no right place, just choose
but how long do i stick with it?
time is fleeting

I'm tired of my life going nowhere
i've spent a good portion of my life being a steward of others
but its also my life!
when is it my turn?

i'm just frustrated
i want to be patient
i would wait eternity for them
but eternity is not what i have
i feel selfish for moving on
but secretly sometimes i feel
they are selfish for keeping holding me back

i dunno i'll get back to this line of thought later