A tale of two me's

Last week i decided to skip bible study.
the bible study i lead
normally i would never think
of even doing such a thing
but this was different
this is was a goodbye dinner for a good friend
one of my first friends in vsa
a friend that had opened this new world.
as she goes off to socal for her doctorate
i am left with some concluding thoughts

can i choose?
do i?
should i?
they feel so very apart
as if i am part of one
i am not of the other